SHE

She stares at you across the room in silence
She walks beside you smiling but her heart is in silence
She loves you more each day but only in silence
She sees you with someone else and she's dying in silence
She writes about her feelings as her voice is in silence
She knows you're playing games so she keeps herself in silence
She walks away leaving her love for you in silence

I AM

I am sitting in a chair drinking down a pint of vodka
I am waiting for the bottle to drown down my sorrow
I am staring at my feet while the world goes bye bye
This time I don't mind what tomorrow brings

I am screaming out loud with nothingness in my voice
I am walking down the street knowing it's a dark alley
I am looking at the concrete seeing stars fly by
This time I don't know, don't know why I'm down

I am getting stomped with the sole of a shoe in my face
I am getting kicked as pain shoots down my entire body
I am getting robbed by a black-hooded man smiling at me
This time I do mind that tomorrow brings me luck

A LOVE STORY

Waiting for my date to come, I reminisce on how we started. It was just like any ordinary day, me bored to death when you came in the room. You smiled and politely introduced yourself, like a white light I saw you. From that moment on I knew that this would work. The day after that, we started "dating." Oh how I love that you seem to always be on time and for the times that you were not, you would apologize and say, "I'm sorry for the wait, I know you can't eat without me." How sweet of you that you would spoon feed me, making sure that I finish my meal. On some occasions, you would wipe food from the sides of my mouth that I clumsily haven't chewed. On some days, we would go out in the park making sure that I catch the beautiful rays of the sun shining down on my skin. When we get back in my room, you would meticulously fix my bed making sure that I was comfortable sleeping in it. You would also make sure that I take my meds on time, how thoughtful of you to remember. On some days, I would get jealous whenever I see you around other people, but would understand it. It's your nature to care for them too. Oh this is love I'm feeling!

Alas, you have come for our date but somehow I felt uneasy. Something must be wrong. You came with someone else. I would have cried when you said, "This would be the last time that I’ll see you, but don't you fret. This is John, he'll be taking over for me. This is my last day here as I have been assigned to another institution."

Oh how would I survive without you? Who would feed me now as I can't feed myself? Who would walk me from my wheelchair out to the fields for my daily sunshine? Who would fix my bed to make sure I would not succumb to bedsores? Oh I hope my next caregiver would remember to give me my meds on time. If I was not brain dead I would have said "I love you and please don't leave me."

THE PATHETIC FALLACY

You say you have seen the sun kiss the moon
You say you have seen lightning chase the midnight sky
You say you have seen the wind whisper at the trees
You say you have seen doves speak praises of the air

You say you have seen the sea cradle a sunken ship
You say you have seen sunlight hug the fields
You say you have seen the tunes dance in the beat
You say you have seen the colors swirl in your room

You say you have seen these, but nobody cares
They say you have gone mad, but I do believe
I say I have seen them too, so don't you fret
I'm just beside the mental cell where you are held

LIGAW

Kung ika'y bugnutin, huwag mo akong akitin
Ang nais ko'y saya hinde ang 'yong yaya
Tayo'y magliwaliw nang tayo'y maaliw
Tumakas sa mundong magulo, baka masira ating ulo

Sa bawat hakbang, may kasiyahang nagaabang
Sa ating palasyo tanging nakikita'y payaso
Tayo'y sumayaw hangga't paa nati'y umayaw
Iwan ang lungkot dahil dito walang puwang ang takot

Dahil sa lugar ng mga amo, tao'y nagsusumamo
Ating bantay na guwardiya, tingnan mo't panay buwaya
Mundong puno ng luha, sana'y ngiti iyong makuha
Para sa aming pagbabalik, nagaabang matamis na halik

MIND AGAINST HEART

Always thinking, never feeling
Deeper sinking, now I'm peeling
As I lay bare, I begin searching
Emotions so rare, I start reaching

My head spinning as I'm now seeing
My ears ringing as I'm now hearing
My hands sweating as I'm touching
All senses reaching critical overload

Mind says think before acting
Heart says act before thinking
Like a roller coaster, love is screaming
As mind says just keep on thinking

Emotions bleeding won't stop flowing
Always thinking, never feeling NO MORE

BUGNUTIN

Nakasimangot ka nanaman
Kinagagalit mo nama'y walang laman
Wala pa nga akong ginagawa
Kaya pahingi naman ng konting awa

Ayus lang kahit 'wag kang magbago
Gumagaling na naman akong magtago
'Wag lang masilip sa ilalim ng mesa
Dun ako'y nakadapang parang pusa

Alam ko naman ika'y medyo bugnutin
At aking pasensya'y kuminsan nabibitin
Problema'y pwede nating pagusapan
Sa kadahilanang ako'y takot sa sapakan

Ating pagtitinginan ay hinde magbabago
Kaya tayo'y magmahalan na lang ng todo todo

NAWAWALA

Mukhang walang maisip o maramdaman. Walang apoy ng damdamin. Nawawala ang galit na matagal ng kasama sa paglalakbay. Parang hubad at walang kadepedepensa. Saan nga ba nagpunta ang galit ko? Nawawala at gustong hanapin, pero nde muna ngayon - tinatamad pa ako eh.

KAHAPON

Umaagos muli ang galit sa bawat ugat
Kinahon muli ang pusong basag
Naaamoy muli ang bango ng bawat sigarilyo
Natitikman muli ang tamis ng alkohol

Ito ang mga bagay na pilit kinalimutan
Ito ang mga bagay na nagpatakbo ng buhay ko
Ito ang mga bagay na kay sarap muling maramdaman
Na-miss ko ito at ngayon pilit binabalikan

PANGAHAS

Ayokong mabuhay sa loob ng isang kahon na puno ng limitasyon. Ayokong sumunod sa agos ng lipunan na ang lahat ay nakiki-uso. Ayokong maging sunud-sunuran sa dikta ng mga taong nagkukunwaring tama. Ayokong maging isang taong walang sariling pag-iisip na sumusunod lang sa ihip ng hangin. May sarili akong pag-iisip, hinde ito radikal ngunit ito ang gusto ko. Walang makakapipigil at walang makakapagbago. Sumasablay at nagkakamali din, ngunit ito ang pinili ko - pakialam nyo ba?